Looking through kijiji band listings and almost cried with… missing music? I guess?
Need to learn to play guitar. Cello is awkward.
Also how the hell do people know how to ‘jam’? This is the problem with being taught music by reading it. Although I guess if I had any natural talent I would’ve figured out how to play by ear.
That was one thing nice about being a kid. You didn’t have to be good at things to get the opportunity to do them. Now it seems like for the most part only the very young and very old are permitted to talentlessly enjoy the things that make them feel alive — in a group setting.
Maybe I’m just projecting my own artistic insecurities, but from what can tell, to be in a play, you’re supposed to be good at acting, to be in a band you’re supposed to be good at playing an instrument, etc.
I don’t know if I’m good! I just want to do these things again! Maybe I could be good one day. Although I never really was, I was ok, but never one of the better people who people thought were actually ‘going somewhere’ with it. And that’s okay! Fuck.
