Also addiction/serious abuse/dependence of any substance is not a good thing (other than certain medication in terms of dependence - technically we’re all dependent on any psych drugs we take which I’m conflicted about but anyway) and I’m not saying that doing other drugs a lot is a good thing either but if you feel like you need to escape and self-medicate to survive and continue bearing with the depression of life without giving up you might as well use something that isn’t going to end up killing you eventually anyway.
and that’s why I smoke weed everynight.
(but I’m trying to stop, down to every 2 days, I figure getting stoned while going on antideps is probs super bad for your brain chemistry. although that post i wrote last night? def written while stoned. the whole creativity and weed thing seems to be a real thing. or maybe it means just Not Giving A Fuck enough to actually write without having the internal critics berate me - silences perfectionism and performance anxiety enough to be actually just BE and MAKE. but anyway smoking weed this often is bad for me but it def has fucked me up a lot less than adderalll did sooooo there’s that.)
if my parents (who google me and read my twitter) and or potential employers ever find this blog i’m so screwed.
anonymity for these reasons please!
