March 2012
6 posts
You know you have no idea what you're doing with...
it’s 7am and you’ve been up all night and you have an assignment for a university class you’re taking as you attend part-time for godknowswhatreason and search classes on kijiji and end up on the local beauty academy website trying to find a link that says how much tuition is. This is all shortly after emailing some random dude asking if he’d be cool with a cellist instead...
Looking through kijiji band listings and almost cried with… missing music? I guess?
Need to learn to play guitar. Cello is awkward.
Also how the hell do people know how to ‘jam’? This is the problem with being taught music by reading it. Although I guess if I had any natural talent I would’ve figured out how to play by ear.
That was one thing nice about being a kid. You...
thebaneofjane:
are you kidding?
of course this is going to go to my head!
wtf, how can okcupid decide who is ‘attractive’?
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okcupid
You know I’m on hour seven of desperate school-avoiding procrastination when I check my OkCupid profile.
I haven’t checked OkCupid since like… December?
Which is terrible because I have this clever, sexy username that makes it seem like I respond a lot and am really into hooking up with OkCupid people but really the only messages I respond to are ones from people I am already...
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It’s 8pm. I woke up at 5:30pm and have been dicking around doing random shit that I don’t even enjoy on the internet since. I woke up at 5:30pm because I didn’t go to sleep until 7am, because from 1am until 7am I was in what I refer to as an “internet timewarp.”
I have a large assignment due tomorrow at midnight. I haven’t started. I didn’t manage to hand...
February 2012
107 posts
“We’re all virgins to the joys of loving without fear.”
– Janelle Monae (via takenoshortcuts)
catheterqueen:
vulgarvulgar:
“Only hang around people that are positive and make you feel good. Anybody who doesn’t make you feel good, kick them to the curb. And the earlier you start in your life the better. The minute anybody makes you feel weird and non-included or not supported, you know, either beat it or tell them to beat it.”
—
Amy Poehler (via ceedling)
You know, I might just reblog...
Trying this new game called not smoking weed. It’s going okay. Spending even more time on the internet than usual though.
another day, another attempt to slay the green eyed monster.
another day, another attempt to stay the fuck off facebook.
don’t compare don’t compare don’t compare don’t compare
it is what it is. i get the usefulness of that statement now.
working on it.
You know the rare occasaion when youre in a fun mood, feel attractiveish and think your hair/makeup worked out ok?
Annnnnd then you go to the mall?
….Yup
posting from the changeroom to escape the mirror
“The older you get, the more shame you are apt to feel if your ADD is...”
– Ratey Md, John J.; Hallowell, Edward M. Md (2005-12-27). Delivered from Distraction (p. 262). Random House, Inc.. Kindle Edition. (via adhdisme)
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anyone remember that post on mental...
there was this post awhile back i really liked talking about how the poster agrees that capitalism/statist culture creates/aggravates mental illness/neurodiversity problems (disabling culture etc, i guess radical disability politics 101 stuff) BUUUUT that that criticism can also invisiblizes or minimize the challenges that people would probably face REGARDLESS? or that we still face even in areas...
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interview, clothes, weight fluctuations, money
Got a call back for a second in-person interview for the phone interview I blogged about bombing. So….yay!
Now for the task of finding appropriate interview clothes. Because I only have a few outfits that fit, where all of them almost every week, and none of them are appropriate for an interview.
Honestly at this point that’s kind of my main motivation for losing weight. It’s...
Dumb Things White People Say: Cultural... →
racismschool:
highgold:
If you like dreadlocks, and want to get them, get them. Anyone who chooses to be deeply offended by someone sporting a hairstyle ‘for the wrong reasons’ is nothing short of an idiot.
If you chose to be a racist, bigoted, over privileged, self centered, egotistical, good for nothing person than by all means, do it. Anyone who has a problem with it is nothing short of a...
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key to successfully travelling with your mother
Don’t expect to see the city, do expecz to return to the hotel at 9 30. Do expect to be horrified by her rudeness and liberal guilt racist comments. Do expect her to flip out when you ask her to reconsider her words and volume of speaking. Do expect to be forced audience to long speeches about her opinions and when making any comment other than ‘right i fully agree’ to get...
“Queer doesn’t mean “don’t label me,” it means “I am naming myself.” It means...”
– What Queerness Means to Me | Tranarchism (via doxian)
damn right
(via tranqualizer)
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Meet up with plastiscenery (one of my highschool best friends, with incredible staying power) at 6.
Gonna hang til 11. (Because neither of us can drive, and I’m going on a trip with my mother in the morning, and that’s the curfew. Visiting the hometown, that’s how it is.)
At the back of my mind, like an awkward socially anxious person would, wonder if we can really fill five...
How to Bomb a Phone Interview (Or, What Doesn't...
Applied for job. On Friday check voicemail, have message from this job asking me to call on Saturday between 1-3 to “clarify and expand on my resume.” I don’t do that. It’s a long story, just deleted a multi paragraph explanation.
Call on Monday, leave a voicemail, apologizing for getting back late and having phone problems. My cell has had no reception since Saturday, so...
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Also addiction/serious abuse/dependence of any substance is not a good thing (other than certain medication in terms of dependence - technically we’re all dependent on any psych drugs we take which I’m conflicted about but anyway) and I’m not saying that doing other drugs a lot is a good thing either but if you feel like you need to escape and self-medicate to survive and...
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Study: Alcohol 'most harmful drug,' followed by... →
My dad, mother’s father, dad’s mother’s father, my mother’s brothers and everyone whose lives touched theirs could’ve told you that
“We died of pneumonia in furnished rooms where they found us three days later when somebody complained about the smell we died against bridge abutments and nobody knew if it was suicide and we probably didn’t know either...
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run for your life
I like this phrase so much I’m twittering AND tumblring it.
LOSING WEIGHT WON’T SOLVE ANY OF MY PROBLEMS BUT RUNNING MIGHT SOLVE ALL OF THEM.
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Just went on a chat room and am making friends with total internet strangers, for the first time in 8 years.
I predict I will be completely addicted to this by next week, like how I was 2 years ago with ChatRoulette.
And with Lord of The Rings Fanatics Plaza ages 12-14.
It’s so terrifying, but so gratifying, and this whole OBSESSED INTERNET FREAK part of my soul starts alighting again....
words missing 4 lyfe
Spend 10 hours working on cover letter.
Literally ten hours, not counting distractions - working on a laptop without internet.
Make 12 different documents.
Proofread final draft four times after pdfing it. Go back to OpenOffice to fix mistakes. Pdf again. Repeat.
Send.
Check a day later.
Really obvious terrible typo. By which I mean: “I performed position” which should read...
tonight's youtube khole
acapella covers of semi-charmed life
i’ve listened to like 4 already.
and listening to a glee club sing these dirty-ass lyrics never gets old.
the most beautiful and inspiring song about blowjobs and meth I’ve yet heard.
Doing crystal myth, Will lift you up until you break, It won’t stop, I won’t come down, I keep stock, With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the...
SSRI Dreams
serpentinitic:
Dream within a dream haha. Been recently having 2 dreams a night
Really not looking forward to returning to this, though.
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started back on antidepressants tonight
went off them in May, have barely left the house, have been crying every other day and smoking too much weed since.
and so! i return. took 5mg of cipralex at 11.
and for the last hour or so i’ve been dancin’ around silently mouthing to the bnl, finally ENJOYING music again.
PLACEBO EFFECT, I LOVE YOU.
then again, was also crying and being all I CANNOT GO ON earlier, so, mood...
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BNL GETS ME.
“Falling For The First Time”
I’m so cool, too bad I’m a loser I’m so smart, too bad I can’t get anything figured out I’m so brave, too bad I’m a baby I’m so fly, that’s probably why it Feels just like I’m falling for the first time I’m so green, it’s really amazing I’m so clean, too bad I can’t get all...
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recession mandatory qualifications
“<NAME> Crepe Cafe is looking for an energetic, positive individual to fill a full time server position.
Must have at least 2 years of serving experience in full service dinning
Must be available days, evenings and weekends
Must have Smart Serve”
… I’m sorry.
For your tiny usually dead cafe that only has crepes, sandwhiches, soup and baked goods, you require...
living with ex's best friend?
Starting to be freaked out about finding a place to live, figured I’m gonna stay in the city I’m in because I don’t really have any alternatives. I kinda wanna stay at the house I’m in too but I dunno if I can come up with three people to fill the empty rooms and don’t wanna live with Randos.
Buuuut an artist collective house thing is looking for tenants, and...
Why are people dogging Whitney for her drug...
so-treu:
daniellemertina:
thegoddamazon:
What the fuck is wrong with you people? Do parents these days really just say “Fuck teaching my kids to respect other people, just let TV and the Internet babysit them. As long as they don’t go out and kill themselves or end up doing ill-reputable jobs for a living, we did a good job.”
Whatever happened to raising decent human beings and teaching...
Just heard an ad for a La-Z-Boy chair on the radio.
“It makes you want to sit down, and never get up!”
….
I’m pretty sure that’s called depression.
Finally watched Reality Bytes tonight. It’s been one of those ‘need to get around to watch it, people keep mentioning it’ things.
Now gonna keep the dream of the 90s alive with some Larry Sanders and/or Kids in the Hall.